italy.

Twelve hours from now I will be on my way to Georgia to catch a plan to Italy. I'm excited and having a hard time relaxing enough to sleep, hints why I'm writing this.

I get the feeling my world is about to get much bigger. Awesome. I'm ready for it. In some ways I hate that I'm leaving my life here for 10 days, but it is ten days I need. I need to do this, now, the timing is perfect. Thinking about it while I'm typing this, I am a sad to go. Maybe not sad, maybe I'm already in the state of missing. I'm excited to go, so excited. But I'm excited to come back. If that makes sense at all.

Oh man......can't wait to share about my journey.

peace out.:)

happiness.

"Happiness is like the old man told me
Look for it, but you’ll never find it all
But let it go, live your life and leave it"
(happiness by the fray)

I don't think you can look for happiness. We try. We have all looked for it at some point in our lives. The harder you look, the harder it is to find. Discontentment grows and happiness is pushed farther away. It just has to come, you just have to let it in...

I'm happy, probably the happiest I have ever been. I would have never guessed my life to be like this, to be where I'm at, to have the people in my life that I do. But I wouldn't change it for the world. I love it.

If you're not happy don't lose hope. It will come with a "violent roar". And is totally worth all you have to go through to get there.

serendipity.

I love that movie, Serendipity. It's kinda old but so so romantic. I love how it was just meant to be between John and Sarah. Even after so much time of not being in each other's lives and not having any way to be in contact, they were still brought together. And it's so stinkin' cute that they thought about each other often!

Funny how things work out like that. I guess when it's meant to be then it's meant to be.

change.

Spring is a dreaded time of year for me. I can feel change in the air and not just with the weather. I don't know what it is, this almost discontent or maybe exhausted feeling sets in, and I know change is coming.

My life has change so much so quickly in the last year. I know things will continue to change and that is a good thing, I like that. It's standing on this side of the changes, knowing they are coming, not knowing what they will look like, dreading the process, but wanting to be at the end result feeling, that I dread. But dread is almost to extreme of a word to use...

MIA.

I've been MIA. I can't write these days. Sometimes you just can't explain in words and sometimes you just don't need to share. Maybe I'll get back into it in the weeks to come, I have a lot of thoughts, but so little time to process.

I do know today I'm so fed up with "Christians" and the "church". So much hypocrisy, so much back stabbing, so much lying, so much hating. What ever happened to being honest and real instead of putting on shows? Or confronting in a Godly manner your issues with one another? Or telling the truth? And what about love? Did we forget how to love each other, good days and bad days? I'm so turned off and don't want it to effect my relationship with the Lord, but it has. Ugh.

My world travels in just a few weeks now will be nice. I need time to think and get back to the basics. Not to mention the sights and tastes of Italy to forget my troubles...

I am blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life...that is overwhelming to me today. It is nice to know people have your back. I pray they know I have theirs.